Tagged by @naniyou (thanks a bunch! I never get tagged on Tumblr, only on Youtube xD
1. Cats that want your attention so bad they nudge your hand and purr while you’re doing something (like playing a video game)
2. Music. I absolutely love music of almost any kind (I only listen to certain country songs and I’m not a fan of any hardcore metal stuff, but I listen to basically anything else)
3. Video games. I love a video game that provides a challenge, but also has a good story to it (examples: Final Fantasy games, Dragon Age games, etc.)
4. Finally getting around to finishing MEP parts, personal projects, or when an MEP I host gets finished.
5. Underrated Non/Disney movies that are actually better than the popular ones. (Current movie obsession: Ballerina)
Tagged by @arisayoshida …Don’t know how but whatever XD Thanks for the tag ^^
1. Watching a season of a show that has your ship in it and the ship turns cannon because…omg!
2. Friends are always there for you when you need them the most even when you’re feeling down in the dumps. I love my friends for this ^^
3. Music. I always listen to music when editing as it helps me concentrate and when I’m going to and from school because if I have earphones in I know no one will disturb me XD
4. Editing a special video for someone either because it’s their birthday or you just feel like it and you see their reaction ^^. I always melt and hug them when they almost tear up if I make it randomly
5. My family and I going to the movies and when an animated movie comes up my brother sitting next to me turns to me and says, “You’re going to be editing this movie once it’s out aren’t you?”. They know me so well ^^
Compliments for my work. No matter what it is. Edited videos, fanfics, homework. I’m a sucker for compliments x’D
Finishing something. The joy of starting a project, no matter what it is, and seeing the finished product makes me happy and proud.
Chatting or hanging out with my friends! Sometimes, it’s incredible how happy you can become simply from chatting with one of your online friends. Like you’d think that because they aren’t physically near you they can’t really affect your mood or lift your spirits, but it just goes to show that online friendships aren’t fake. If you can make your friend feel better even though you’re not physically near you are a true friend ❤
Shipping feelings… that’s it xD
Discussing something I’m passionate about with people who are either equally passionate about it or are respecting my passion cause they love me. A thing that comes to mind there is that whenever I have one of my baby fevers, my mom and @olivedoodles are usually my favorite targets to discuss development psychology with or watch cute baby videos with or whatever. And neither of them are particularly passionate about children (my mom’s way past that and Olive doesn’t like children though she swears she’ll love mine xD) so the fact that they let me talk about my hopefully future motherhood makes me very happy and grateful ❤
I died for a bit but Im finally gnna reply to this!!
1> My projects going right, wether its art or writing or planting something and having it sprout
2> tbh? Good horror. My preferations are less gore and lots of phsycological torture!!
3> When animals actually like me… it happens a lot but it never gets old…
4> thos. Weird furry movies. Im talkin zootopia bur also Sing and Chicken Little
5> colorful video games… Overwatch and Breath of the wild lind of games
Ok uhh times for tags @generic-heroine@darkmoonravewolf@melodramatic-butterfly I cant remember anyone else Im sorry lmao
OMG SPOOKY I LOVE ZOOTOPIA THATS MY FAVORITE MOVIE HAHA!! thanks for the tag!
1. When people tell me they love me :] – it’s just great 👌😥
2. Hugs and physical affection lol – being close to another human being is great, irl or online
3. Spicy and sweet romantic shit – literally look up Dead Girl Walking from Heathers animatic on youtube and the first two results are so good dude. I like stupid flirty shit xD
4. Music I appreciate. Currently I’m in a Heathers and Waitress obsession phase but I do love Panic! At the Disco and Zara Larson as well
5. Being liked as a human being because if you know me – I am a terrible human xD so it’s always nice to know I’m liked in the fandom I participate in.
After a bit of talking with my girlfriend and a friend of mine I’ve decided I won’t do it right now. I still am feeling suicidal. I can’t calm down at all, my hands are shaking and I’m having trouble writing this.
My suicide date is July 25th.
For every note this post gets, I will push it back by a day.
I’ll never not be amused by the fact that I can drop the words “crucifix nail nipples” into a conversation and some of you who have been with me since the livejournal days will join me in the flashbacks, screaming and crying all the way.
I require context. Because this is a very interesting start of a story, and now I need the rest of it. Could I get a link, or a summary, or something? Pretty please?
All right buckle the fuck up kids, it’s the year 2012 and I’ve just been handed what should be an easy editing gig by my senior editor. It’s a vampire erotica story because one of the final Twilight movies is about to come out, and everything is vampires. Everything. I haven’t edited a single thing in months which isn’t about vampires. I am ready, I can do this. So I open the file and notice there’s a typo in the title, which really should have been my first inkling that something horrendous was about to go down, but you see I’m not quite dead inside yet so I carry on, bushy tailed and bright eyed with my faith in humanity intact. It’ll be dead by page 24, but I don’t know that yet. I’m just editing one more vampire boner fest.
The MC is a girl who we’ll call Sue. Sue is a Good Girl™, Sue is Not Like Other Girls™, she is pale and awkward and a virgin and has somehow managed to find herself a Bad Boy™ for a boyfriend. We’ll call him Dickhead.
Now Dickhead as previously stated is a bit of dick, he tries to pressure Sue into sex because he knows she is The One™ but he loves her really so it’s okay. Except it’s not okay because Sue is a Good Girl™ and holding out till marriage which he’s fine with except he’s got such a bad case of blue balls that one night walking home an attractive stranger lures him into an alley with the words “hey stud” and he follows, dick out before she’s even finished her sentence. Well turns out that was a mistake for Dickhead because she’s a vampire, but not just any vampire, a Dick Biting Vampire. So what started out as a skeevy blow job behind a club that he’ll feel bad about in the morning, turns into him being bitten on the dick and drained of his life essence and left for dead. Except DBV fucked up and now he’s a vampire. Are you still with me? Good, cause it’s about to get weirder.
Realizing he is now an abomination, Dickhead flees, becoming a creature of the night and feeding on animals rather than humans to repent for being such an asshole in life. Sue meanwhile is heartbroken, but carries on valiantly with her life and goes to bed each night crying for the loss of her One True Love™ who she would do anything to bring back. Well guess what Sue, Dickhead never really left you! He’s been “instinctively protecting her from rapists” by hiding out on her roof and fighting hobos who try to get to her open window via the fire escape for months now. Because that’s not fucking terrifying at all.
Upon learning of his predicament and how it happened, Sue can do nothing but blame herself. Oh if only she’d let him touch her secret places, then perhaps all of this could be avoided! Meanwhile Dickhead is having another dilemma of his own, realizing too late that his vampire powers have given him super senses and now he can smell her blood and he can’t decide whether he wants to get with her or eat her. And I don’t mean in the French sense. But he is strong! And over comes his base manly vampire instincts and neither rapes not kills her. Hurrah! And this is so romantic that Sue gives it up, but not before she launches into a theory about how in all fairy tales, True Love saves the day, so maybe her magical pure vagina that has never been touched by anyone, not even her, can bring him back to life. So Dickhead being a dickhead agrees and rips her clothes off, but not before he takes one last moment to marvel at the beauty of her purity, because he will never again look on her again and know she is Pure.
If you’ve only vomited once by now, I applaud your resolve.
So they hop on the good foot and do the nasty, except she is literally so pure in spirit, her flesh burns his. And I quote you from memory because these words are burned into my soul: “her breasts bit into his hands, like crucifix nail nipples tearing at
his flesh, but he did not care because he loved her so and couldn’t
stop”
This phrase haunts me. I dread that it will be the last thing I think about on my death bed and my last words will literally be “god fucking dammit” as I die, carrying that mental image with me into the afterlife. My own solace is in knowing that I inflicted it on other people too, like @ahzuri who is somehow still with me after all these years.
When the magical burning sex fails to heal him and leaves her bruised, battered and broken with “a dainty blue bells of bruises around her secret flower” (I am genuinely quoting this, I could never make something as horrendous as this up without being on acid) Dickhead leaves. Yeah. Off he fucks, leaving her to the mercy of the hobos at her window, and into the night to be the true monster he really is. But wait, there’s more. Remember the dick biting vampire? Well turns out she has figured out she made him into a vampire and has also been stalking HIM and is totally jealous of Sue, so tries to kill her. But again Sues Purity saves her, because sex before marriage which was done out of True Love is not a sin, so she is still a spiritual virgin and I’ll be honest, I started drinking heavily at this point and it’s all a bit of a blur.
A fight ensues some pages later after Dickhead returns, realizing the mistake he has made. And he rescues Sue from the Dick Biter, but not before he assaults Dick Biter, and calls her a slut for luring innocent men into alleys cuts her heart out by cutting her breasts off, at which point i screamed “THAT’S NOT HOW YOU REACH THE HEART” and my brain short circuited completely and I have no idea how it ends because I realized there was 30 pages left and my soul couldn’t take it. I emailed the chief editor like ?????!!!!!!????!!!!!! and the book was immediately pulled from the work line and the author dismissed from the publishing house. Turns out she was a friend of a friend and that was how she got the manuscript past our entry levels for requirement.
And that’s the story of how an author sent me death threats for over a month because I stopped her shitty vampire porn from ever seeing the light of day. You’re all fucking WELCOME.
Discount Deity of Death 